A Kind Of Guilt

There is a certain kind of guilt that falls upon mothers when their kids fall sick. Maybe only mothers understand what I am talking about. When Joey falls sick, there is always a nagging thought in my mind, 'Was there something I could have done better?', 'Did I give her something wrong to eat?', 'Had I been negligent?'.

Sorry for sounding so pessimistic. But what I'm feeling is a natural thing, isn't it? I mean, I am her main caregiver, and she doesn't know how to take care of herself and has to depend on me wholly. So if anything goes wrong, i must take full responsibility right?

Well, of course I do know the answer to that. Some kids do fall sick as part & parcel of life. They're building up their immunity and growing stronger through their sickness. Sounds ironical but it's true. Read from somewhere before that babies get the same number of colds & flus during their babyhood as compared to the number of colds & flus they will get as an adult. Babyhood is only at most 4 years, but they get the same number of colds as they would as an adult for the rest of their lives (probably 70 over years?). It's a way of building immunity to prepare for adulthood.

Joey had been whinny since a few days ago. Not feeling well, so inevitable. Spent close to an hour just to coax her to sleep this morning. I hope she becomes stronger & stronger!

For a balance, frankly, mothers don't know everything. We just try our best, that's all. Even for those who have been mothers for 30 years, they may not know everything either. Trial & error is the most frequently method used by us! haha..

As Mother's Day approaches, may I wish all mothers, 'A Happy Mother's Day!' You're doing great! =)