Small J

The last three months had been a most fulfilling time for me as a mum.

I spent almost every waking moment with Small J and enjoyed the quality time with her. I could totally focus on being a mum because I didn’t have to worry about work or anything else. All I needed to do was to take really good care of this little baby. It was thoroughly enjoyable because Small J is such an adorable & engaging baby! :)

I remember when I was on maternity leave 3 years ago when I had Joey, I could only rest for 2 months and use the 3rd month flexibly. 2 months was absolutely not enough! I did not really have much time to bond with baby as my mum-in-law took care of her most of the time so that I could rest from my C-section. And when I got back to work, I had to manage the pressures of work and also the emotional & physical stress that came along with taking care of Joey. There were also many unpleasant things happening in my life then, which added on to the burden.

This time round, I got to have a good rest in the 3 months, and I solely took care of baby, so I felt closer to her and thus had a much better post partum recovery. :)

Once I start work tomorrow, I will have to be an octopus mummy again, juggling many roles simultaneously. I know it will be a challenge, but I just got to take it as it comes. I really hope that I will be a good mum who can balance my work, ministry and family well. Many mums have done it before, and I am sure I will be able to do it too. God will help me! :)

The only thing that gets me down about starting work is that I can no longer spend time 24/7 with Small J. I really, really pray that she will be able to adapt fast and well to the office nursery and her caregivers there! I want her to be a secure and happy baby!

When I look at her face, I wish I can have more time to be with her all day long!